::migrate~again..::

hurm..seems like wordpress doesnt allow html so much..so i decided to go to blogspot..well if u like me that much..please visit me there..there wont be any updates from my wordpress anymore..k guys..have fun

::bersawang::

humaih..agak bersawang ckit blog aku ni..lama gak xupdate.. ekceli byk jer nk crita but then mls nk menaip..maen fesbuk lg sonok.. nothing much 2 write..juz want 2 inform that i’d finally found my happiness n yet it will leads 2 my destination eventually (sorry guys..it’s not about work..still looking 4 it) i’ll story later about that happines..till then..chill!!

from T’s wedding, D’s engagement, till my dearest Queen Bee’s anniversary (a.k.a Comel-whatmymumcalledit)..++ Z’s emergency call..n Slmt berpose..hehehe

yeay! berjaye mencipta tajuk yg pnjang utk post kali ni..k la..meh kite recall ape yg terjadi pd sy beberapa ari yg lepas di bulan ogos..ngehngehngeh..

08-08-09

it’s T’s wedding ( n she’s so pretty on that special day of her ~ in spite of she alwiz that damn beauty..haha) well..we’d arrived pretty late that day..around 2p.m.. (abah da usik2 da sal lauk da abes..ceh..trus aku msg S xnk g..majok..haha) however..g gak together with R n S..haha..suprisingly, my BF yg da kawen (previous post)dgn hubby die ade same (nmpk sgt umah plg dekat dtg lmbt gak dgn kami yg jauh ni huhu..sbnrnye kami sesat..g slh tmpt sbb kt ag ade 2 dewan..huhuhu) xlame la g jmp pgantin sbb da kul 2 kan..pas pgantin mkn (ala..dorg xbrp nk mkn pon..sbb aku tgk dr kejauhan 2,3 suap utk bgambo trus dorg g pelamin amek gmbo blk..) kami g jmp pgantin..slm2..amek gmbo ckit pas 2 blah g umah kwn sorg lg 2ng..(xde gmbo nk tnjuk sbb hanset ku rosak.. kapankah ku dpt henset br..??

then g lak umah D..mkn lg..punyelah lame kat lepak umah die..D ni sum1 yg sgt low-profile..dr zaman sekolah dulu..aku dgn die semeje ms amek subjek KH bhgian KMT ..kami ber6 je puan ms 2 yg amek subjek ni.. D is sum1 yg xske nk heboh2 sal pakwe die (cm certain ppl yg anggap pakwe 2 sgt2 mulie..ntahapeapetah) n xde la nk war2  nk kawen cmner, nk 2ng cmner..juz simple jer org nyer..(cant wait to meet her on her special day next year..hehe..D-we’re gonna berkmpung kt umah ko..yg sekentut jer dr umah haku )

14-08-09

it’s Comel’s Bday..(hurm kene pggl my Bee this name after this coz my mum like it )almost a year she wit me..n i’m fond with it… this raya i’ll buy u sumtg purple k..haha.. (soo in love with her..my MBR..)

last week

no-matter

felt sorry 4 Z.. her “hubby-2-b” is encountered with an xcident..n so sad when she kept crying all nite n cant sleep at all..(luckily she had her dinner b4 the news..) n 4 being a gud sis (at all ) i told her 2 go back 2 kuantan to look after her “abg..” hurm..i’m good whenever give advices or ideas to ppl who had same situation with myself..but when it comes to my own problem..no-can-do anythg..(hurm..who’s luckier than me..? complex-yet-weird reasons to answer that “gold” ques..when i want 2 settle down..) well u drama queen..u win.. i’d surrender..now u dont have 2 b afraid i might get married 1st b4 u..no i dont..even 5 years 2 come i’m still single..now u n ur “perfect abg” can plan ur wed without being afraid sum1 would be greater and more perfect than ur relationship or wedding.. go on..have fun..

24-08-09 (today!)

hari ke 3 berpose..opps..ok terlongkang b4 this..k la..slmt berpose n smoga pose ni dpt memperbaiki ibadat2 kite sblm ni..(hurm..skrg da leh beribadat dgn lebeh selesa bile xde lg org yg ske tru2 dpn mate..huhu) thank u God…

through sleepless nites..sigh!

Insomnia is a symptom of any of several sleep disorder, characterized by persistent difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep despite the opportunity. Insomnia is a symptom, not a stand-alone diagnosis or a disease. By definition, insomnia is “difficulty initiating or maintaining sleep, or both” and it may be due to inadequate quality or quantity of sleep. It is typically followed by functional impairment while awake. Both organic and non-organic insomnia without other cause constitute a sleep disorder, primary insomnia.(source : wikipedia)

'm becoming in a few days..presumably..ke?

gess..i thought i was sleeping, but i havent got any dreams, n i didnt feel like sleeping when i woke up..like i’m juz laying, hugging patrick n..blur..!! m i thinking 2 much or 2 deep? na-ah.. i tried counting sheeps, saying my name times n times again, reciting prayers , thinking of mr. z (hurm..no wonder xleh tdo ke ) but nothing works even there’s a huggable patrick by myside!! i really mish my night sleep..where i can dream n have a gud rest .. i’m so tired, sleepy but when i try 2 sleep..puffff..everythg’s seems fade away..owh! what a crap i’m talking bout.. rite now..i juz cant feel my own legs, my eyes want to close tightly eveytime they blink..xkire lg bp byk kali da mnguap.. the worst part..i dont want to eat but desperately yearning to sleep..

soo...tired

perhaps..i could get a gud sleep tonite.. i dont care i really want it!! a lot!! or else i’ll become…as the picture below..haha

and so..the mean girl is back..

- 27th july 2009 (epi bday abah ;D )

it’s almost August.. well that means another 4months 2 go b4 new year.. i know i didnt update my blog quite sumtimes.. i took me like forever to stare at my blog page, click 2 new post but then write nothing to it.. i presumed facing life each day is easier rather than to experience n rewrite it into a different kind of opinion..in other words – blogging it..the same things happened to my thesis.. donno where to start and eventually lost in what i’d tried to focus.. (weird!) owh..yeah..recently i had a “long-vacation”..hihi..well it’s wasnt so long actually..juz taking a week off from some tasks..(i guess ;p) kind of exhausted when u have to be patient when sum1 really pissed u off, making innocent faces like it’s-not-my-fault-n-i’m-the-victim-here, accusing ppl hypocrite whereas the 1 that hyper is oneself actually.. well.. me? i’ll try to stop being hypocrite to myself when i will reveal anythg that i know i wont tolerate anymore in my blog..it’s mine n who cares what ppl might say! owh yeah..cant wait till next week..got the feelings that it’s gonna be a wonderful week ;p

-28th july 2009

i still dont understand whattheheck “us” should attend sum kind of workshop that involved lamina flow, autoclaf etc..etc.. n the worst part “we” HAVE 2 attend the demo workshop in the afternoon.. what a crap!! but the best part when it came 2 majlis penutup..i was escaped! hihi…ahh..lantak..malas aku nk melayan kerenah birokrasi kt cni, umah sewa lg..ahh..sume nye memeningkan kepala.. ;p ..wasnt a surprise when “we” get busted while “lepak”-ing kat pantri..(menyampah la..asal “kami” xde jer nk kecoh 1 bangunan.. pe ingat best sgt ke dok 1 aras dgn pengarah!! hahahaha) ntah la…xfhm aku..knp la ade manusia yg perlu tunjuk bagus, terlebih baik..(dgn laki bkn muhrim/mahram xleh dekat tp bdating dgn pakwe xpe ..ke? ), ske bersaing yg sgt la xsihat..tahapehapetah lg.. soo lame la.. n stop tunjuk muke xbersalah, pure2 baik dpn sume org…wanita lindungan kaabah kunun..walhal busuk nyer xhingat!! (opps..refer 2 bau yg kuar secara smulajadi- samada dr mulut, keti, n so on ;p)

p/s- sorry it’s the mean-est part inside me that write this ;p

like a snail

adeh…3.07pm…so sloww.. time feels like crawling when u’re damn bored n got nothing to do!! (in spite of  me should finish writing my manuscript..i decided not to ..) layan facebook n frenster but still buhsan gak (i noe frenster is sooooo outdated rite now..but who cares lar..) cant wait to get my ppt for kolokium siswazah back..(ez zit gonna be tonite??)hurm still wondering if she ever give it a.s.a.p..

xde koje buhsan byk keje lg la buhsan…as usual i plan my work every month..well..every 6 months actually (whether i could ever done it —-> that’s a different story la wei..) yesterday i’d already print july’09 until nov’09 calendar.. but cant find any words to write on it..(xde koje da ke?) xtau la..i dont noe my status rite now (instead of single n not available la…huhu but i can be acceptable any other way ) i mean my status in c. elegans project whether the task is done or not n…should i or shouldnt i continue my contract..?? hurmm..yup..a contract worker like me really need the confirmation to continue asap or else we’ll get our pay late than usual..(as we’re not staff )

3.20pm..cant believe it’s only 13minutes gone as i’m typing this post..

~nobody’s home~

1 is a lonely no..

i have to confess..after rain comes sunshine (lately KL was covering by “jerebu” so the shine was slightly unavailable..;p) terrible week after all..phew..even it wasnt me who lost the most but still traumatized me a lot.. sum1 (or perhaps a group of irresponsible yet heartless ppl) had entered our house (me n my fwens rented house) n stole everythg they could possibly grabbed within 3-4 hours approximately.. the situation was calm at first since we didnt noe the exact story (like idk so idc..) but it changed after we’re noticed that couple of things were gone..(& those stuffs werent with the owner..i could say!)

immediately i got a quick goosebump! n mind u it continues everytime i enter our house.. (until this particular moment lar..) we’re usually staying together like 6-7 ppl then suddenly when sum1 break into our house the aura of different person seems like haunting me (that’s y i do get goosebumps without reason..kot!) —> or perhaps..i’m that cowardly gal in the house..

right now..i’m juz telling myself to be brave all the time (even my bad habit is to frighten myself with those ghost story that i’ve read..hikhik..)hurm..the gud thing is when the “thing” happened nobody was at home..n that’s soooo relief..

wanna go xtra miles wit ya..;p

p/s – idk -i dont noe, idc – i dont care..got it..

Regards,

A. L

no place like home

until yesterday..i’d travel a lot (ye la..hikhik..definition from my own dictionary la ;p) from kuantan to langkawi..yup.. kinda exhausted but i’m having fun (apparently this is the last progress meetg i will attend..as my master project seems 2 finish oredi..) 1 part of me i’m so grateful that eventually all my hustle-n-bustle life (plus hecticly complex yet complicated life ;p) will comes to an end..but 1 part of me..i do feel a little bit sad.. as i’m leaving my “baby” (project) soon..n not only that..this almost 3 years “stick” @ my lab really taught me a million lessons that i admit i couldnt get anywhere else..

cant write much right now..got stuff to do (hihi…the aura of xcellent student suddenly appear ker? ;p) juz couldnt wait 2 back 2 melaka (home sweet home).. hopefully can write a bit longer another time.. soonish guys!

it’s May’09 already!!

phew..it’s been a while since i’d updated my blog with hectic posts..(yup my life is a bit hectic at the moment..hihi) it’s a month of May..(yeay! another 7 months 2 go b4 my master ended! (hopefully!) n..this month i’ve turned 25 (officially..) being surrounded by loving family n fwens (esp mr. z) 4 25 years do contented my life a lot.. yup there’s a time when i felt so lonely (coz i want it) but most of the time i alwiz got sum1 around..yup..as a matter of fact..another 5 years 2 go b4 i can settle down..(hurm..wish it will be as quick as a blink of eyes)

owh..ye..hmm..to a “mysterious guy” who kindly gave me a wake up call..sumhow around 3-5 o’clock in the morning..tx 4 ur calling..but anyhow..i’m not that patient to sum1 who undoubtly disturbing my sleeping hour! (ask tucci how i hate ppl interrupt me when m sleeping).. n yet ur attention 2 me is highly appreciated but trust me i’m not worth for it.. xo would u mind not disturbing me anymore..TQVM

p/s cant wait to get myself some pressies..hiihi..esp end of this month..(going 2 meet him..yeay!!!)

if it’s not sorry then…??

Tuhan kirimkanlah aku,
kekasih yang, baik hati,
yang mencintai aku,
apa adanya

Mawar ini, semakin layu,
tak ada yang, memiliki,
seperti, aku ini,
semakin, pupus

(munajat cinta -ahmad dhani)

say-a-lil'-prayer

been into this song lately..yup..it’s a slow song but i like it so much..(n recently YUNA -& SEBENARNYA..) hmm..i tend to be sum1 who alwiz shedding my tears no matter how small the thing is..(exception..xla smpi terpijak taik ayam pun nangis..huhu)..that’s my biggest weakness in life..i juz lurvvve 2 cry n i dont know why..maybe that’s some sort of mechanism for me 2 defend myself..(from…who? what? when? how??) recently..sum “BIG” things had happened to my life..n it was hard, tough..n i juz thought i’m not gonna make it.. sumhow i managed to get over it. n what i’d learned..i muz be strong, i cant rely on other ppl so much..n most importantly..i have to stop crying..

yup..my hands r small n i know..but they are mine..right now i gained a lot of energy n started to love myself even more..(deepest appreciation n thousands of tx dedicated to my family who alwiz be there 4 me..n supported me..thru my gud n bad times..) i knew i’d troubled myself a lot n i often forget bout me many times..i alwiz try not to hurt other ppl but it’s me who hurt the most eventually.. n i hate myself 4 being sooooo ridiculous.. i am responsible for my feelings n for that reason i will not let myself cause my heart so much misery anymore..

losing grip

tx for treating me that way..n it’s u who taught me to be strong..even it really cuts me deep, though

I’m broken hearted, I can’t let you know
And I won’t let it show
You won’t see me cry

Love n regards,

A.L